Disclaimer: this one gets kinda sappy
I don't know what I would do without my friends. Specifically at this point in time, Karen. But in general. I try to help them when I can, but days like today it feels like there's nothing I could ever do to make up for the way they make my life better.
So, I'm freaking myself out about Matt graduating. I recognize this while I'm not actually freaking out, but during the freak-out period I kind of forget that I'm mostly fueling the fire all by myself. If that makes any sense. And I was telling Karen about it today online and she helped SO much. She's so much calmer than I ever am. And I guess part of that is that she's able to distance herself from whatever I'm upset about, which is the same thing I can do for her, but it still seems so amazing that she's able to just calmly tell me what I should do without being presumptuous or pushy: she just says "you should probably do this" or "that might not be the best idea right now" and she's ALWAYS RIGHT. She's going to make a good minister. :-) And maybe today I was just already feeling kind of emotionally vulnerable or whatever, but she was so encouraging and had so many nice things to say about me that I just started crying -- I got really nervous that someone was going to come by the office and need something! :-/ It's just amazing to have someone that supportive in my life. Someone who loves me unconditionally that way. I am SO lucky to have Karen, and all my other friends too.
You people are the reason I believe in Love - the general kind, the kind people mean when they say "God is Love". I don't have much else to go on from this particular lifetime. But you, all you people who love me and tell me so, you show me that there is unbelievable, unaccountable, inexpressible good and joy and love in this world and you guys are why I haven't gone completely nuts.
Sorry for the deep thoughts/emotional quality of this entry... it's just the mood I'm in recently.
So, I'm freaking myself out about Matt graduating. I recognize this while I'm not actually freaking out, but during the freak-out period I kind of forget that I'm mostly fueling the fire all by myself. If that makes any sense. And I was telling Karen about it today online and she helped SO much. She's so much calmer than I ever am. And I guess part of that is that she's able to distance herself from whatever I'm upset about, which is the same thing I can do for her, but it still seems so amazing that she's able to just calmly tell me what I should do without being presumptuous or pushy: she just says "you should probably do this" or "that might not be the best idea right now" and she's ALWAYS RIGHT. She's going to make a good minister. :-) And maybe today I was just already feeling kind of emotionally vulnerable or whatever, but she was so encouraging and had so many nice things to say about me that I just started crying -- I got really nervous that someone was going to come by the office and need something! :-/ It's just amazing to have someone that supportive in my life. Someone who loves me unconditionally that way. I am SO lucky to have Karen, and all my other friends too.
You people are the reason I believe in Love - the general kind, the kind people mean when they say "God is Love". I don't have much else to go on from this particular lifetime. But you, all you people who love me and tell me so, you show me that there is unbelievable, unaccountable, inexpressible good and joy and love in this world and you guys are why I haven't gone completely nuts.
Sorry for the deep thoughts/emotional quality of this entry... it's just the mood I'm in recently.
posted by Kira at 12:49 PM
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